She is worth it I guess

well its been 13 days since I quit Smoking Weed...I keep Hearing from people that I'm Through the worst part.That in a couple more days.. heck I wont even miss it..Well I think that's a Crock of horse Shit. sure my body feels alittle better.. I'm eating more and I don't feel as Crappy... But I feel Like there is something Missing.. Like  piece of my brain has been shut off.I always wanted to be a Writer.. or a comedian!! I Thought.. wait till people get aload of whats in my Brain.. there gonna Fucking love it !! Now I feel like I cant say what I'm relay thinking.. And That is Death.. when it comes to comedy!! Sure.. I don't think I'm relay that funny when I'm smoking weed.. But now I'm so unfunny .. Its almost kinda funny=)_~I'm sitting here chain smoking cigarettes .. drinking Gin.. and I think to myself.. Is this what the world wants?? Another chain smoking Drunk asshole??I'm watching Louis CK on TV.. his new Show Louie!! well Hes having sex with Jone Rivers right now.. and I cant even Crack a Smile.. Lol all I can think about is stupid crap.. Like the Vatileaks scandal.. Lol the pope is launching an Investigation into how Documents curtailing his Corrupt Bull(&*%^ ever saw the light of day.. Hes not mad that thoses things are going on in his church.. or even sorry that they did.. hes mad that anyone would have the nerve to leak his shit.. and say bad thing about his High and Mighty ass..Oh and they Leaked EVERYTHING..lol from Child abuse to Corrupt banking there isn't much that this old fart isn't capable of.. And I'm trying to think of something funny to say.. But I cant!.. lol there is a gold jem sitting Right in front of me.. and I just cant Reach out for it right now... I could say something like.. well its a good thing it wasn't a Group of 12 year old boys who released these documents .. or the pope would realy Fuck them... But I cant.. well .. I just did.. But you get my point.. !! I'm just trying to get a decent job so I can take care of my New girlfriend.. she is Beautiful and I love her Alot!! so much infact that I gave up the only thing that ever realy made me happy.. Smoking weed !! and Writing Funny jokes about the stupid things that piss me off in this world..!! Lol .. I know I will be back to smoking weed as soon as I land a Good job..But still.. I cant help but feel dead inside right now..I think to myself.. Why Cant I be Judged on how well I work.. Or How Kind I am to Others.. Not how clean my piss is.. I swear .. I wish I could piss in a Giant  cup and take all the bastards in the world who think weed should be illegal and make them Drink it!! and then say THERE Is it clean enough for you asshole !!.We are all on a survivle trip now.. That's what Mr Hunter S said.. and you know ..He was right.. We are all just Scraping by Doing what we have to do to please the Morally Righteous self serving Bastards who run the show.. Lol I be when nobodies looking they do shit that would Curl Your Toes..Like The Good Reverend Ted Hagard,.. Lol he WAS.. the head of the Cristian Evangelical Church.. Lol that is until he got Caught Smoking Crystal Meth.. and blowing Gay Prostitutes.. and its not the meth.. Or the gay prostitutes that piss me off about him.. It how he holds himself up to be something hes not... and forces me to be something I'm not.. and all the while hes sitting there..smoking his meth.. and jacking his tiny little pecker off to some gay porn.. But shit on me if I smoke a joint right.. There are alot of fucked up people in this world.. And I guess The only thing I can do is play there game.. Until maybe someday.. I'm in Charge...Lol .. Ya . we would all be in troble then right.. Oh well I guess she is worth it.. Oh.. and Baby.. If your Reading this I love you..Lol and this is Proof!!! .. Ya with anyluck.. somday..I be a famous writer.. Like Hunter S Tomson.. or Hemingway.. And ill be able to smoke all the pot I want .. and none of these pencil dicked little assholes will be able to say a Dam word about it!!I guess all I can Do till Then is Fight.. and Encourage others to fight..and maybe ..If we Try hard Enough.. we will beat these worthless losers in the end.. All thoses republican .. right wing,Overly religious ,selfsevering losers wont be able to tell me..To tell US that we are morally Inferior anymore!!We will have exposed them for the Pig fuckers they realy are.. .. man I hope someone like Louis CK reads this.. and gives me a job as his.. I don't know.. errand boy or something.. that way I could be judged on who I am.. Not what I smoke.. heck I bet he would smoke one with me.. Oh well ..shes worth it.. Lol and don't worry my army of Devoted followers.. =)_~ Ill be back to smoking the Green Genie and Writing about Kurt Cobanes secret Mexican love Children soon enough =)_~ peace love dope all you Groovy Freaks